i finally got some work today. my supervisor at the assignment desk called me at 10:45 and said that he had an assignment for me tuesday through friday. i said yes to it so eagerly, i'd forgotten that i was flying out on friday to austin. anyway, he also had an assignment for me today that just happened to start thirty minutes from when they called. normally, this wouldn't be a problem, because the family here usually lets me borrow their second car; however, today that car was out of commission, so i had one of the most breakneck trips on muni of my life. i made it there not too too late, only to find that there really wasn't anything for me to do. i read and watched a wee bit of telly (they had one sitting on the goddamn desk! christ!) and did a bunch of crossword puzzles.

the real killer of the day was hearing that my supervisor hadn't gotten any of my calls last week asking for work... i don't know what was going on, but it was maddenning to learn that all that time i was just hanging around waiting for work, they didn't even know i wanted any. ugh.

the slightly annoying part of getting work was reworking all my plans that i had made with the assumption that i wasn't getting any work... most notably i had to tell alexis that i couldn't pick her up at the airport on wednesday. i feel kind of bad about it, since i'm going away for the weekend that she's here... she said she understands: my plans to austin were made before she found out she was coming here for work, so what was i supposed to do, but i feel bad regardless.

i have to buy a new suit this week; my mom is pushing one for my cousin's wedding which is at the end of august. i hate making large purchases. i always leave feeling like i've made some concession or mistake that i will pay for dearly in the long run. ugh. that's my second "ugh" of this post... not a good sign.

not much to report on the job front. everything seems very much up in the air. things have gone from vaguely uncertain to more uncertain with this job on long island... mary apparently still hasn't gotten a firm commitment from the people who run the show that she's going to be brought back as producer, and as such doesn't want to promise me anything (rightly so). hopefully i'll know more by the end of this week, but, yeah. slightly with the nervous making. mary also sent along a letter of interest of mine to a woman she knows in la, and i'm going to try and get in touch with her tomorrow, so we'll see about that... but i've been warned it's a long shot. great.

so... yeah. well, i'll be honest, i'm more depressed now than when i started the post... that's not how it's supposed to work! let's hope for better tomorrow.

until then.